Shhh...it's a secret...

Weird...

I'm pondering whether or not I should change my comment remark to something different then Pictures of Lee and Dave together naked...because ever since I changed it to that, no one has left me a comment! It seems as though everyone is afraid to see this sight...come on people! Embrace the nakedness of Lee and Dave...hold and keep it...and cherish it and love it...Ok, maybe not...Anywho...work sucks...I don't feel like going at 3...I was going to go home for a couple days but I don't think I'm going to do that either...I still haven't gotten a new phone...so I have no way of communicating with people other then e-mail and a carrier pidgeon...which by the way the carrier pidgeon thing is the lamest thing ever...Becca and Joe know what I'm talking about...And I realized last night as I was driving out to the middle of nowhere to spend the night in my apartment in the ghetto alone...that gee, I would have no way to call anyone and let them know that someone just broke in and raped me...oh well, no big deal...So apparently not everyone understands the "Carrie doesn't have your number so she can't call you unless you leave a message with your number in it" idea....PEOPLE! If you call me and want me to call you back...you NEED to leave your number!!! Let's see...what else is new...I think I'm getting sick...at least my nose thinks so...and Jess just talked me into calling in sick to work...so thats a plus...I should go...but whatever! I worked last night with Shawn and almost had to work from 8-11 alone with him! But I got Ben to work for me...it was ok working with him and I'm sure the 8-11 would've been fine but he kept saying that we should hang out still...and then would add as friends after a pause...I don't know if he's trying to figure me out or what...but I seriously don't want to hang out with him, even as friends...he's just not that much fun...The last time I talked to my mom she gave me another talkin' to about me and my view on relationships...That I push people away...and that I don't hold my relationships with people in very high regard...which in a sense could be true...but it's not...I just know that after a week or two of spending time with someone if it's there or if it isn't...and I know that some people I've told that these people I just didn't care about or didn't mean anything...but I'm beginning to realize that it's not that I didn't care about them or that they were nothing...it's just that "IT" wasn't there for me...and I think most people will agree that you can determine that about a person in a week or two of knowing them...but then on the flip I think a lot of the time people are willing to surpass that feeling of it not being there just to be in a relationship or make things work so they aren't just sitting there being lonely...A lot of people, myself included, just don't like being alone...it drives me nuts...And I don't mean alone as in single...I mean alone as in no one to call to even talk to...or to hang out with....I don't know...I guess thats just my view of everything...I do value a relationship...but I'm not going to put value into something that just isn't working...and this blog turned out longer then I thought it would...so I'm sure Lee and Dave have stopped reading by now...haha...or actually they probably just saw their names in it and are reading it....

posted by *Carrie* @ 11:25 AM